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I offeredI offered to kill myself last night,
It would make everyone happy,
But you had to tell everyone.
Ruined it all,
Don't you understand?
I just can't cope.
Life has just got too hard.
Unbearable,
Impossible,
changing me,
Into something i'm not.

we were the best of friendsWe sat together in class,
Spent time with each other at break.
We always used to text,
I was always there for you
and you were always there for me.
We were the best of friends,
Laughing at almost anything.
Used to meet up at the weekends.
Have a laugh.
Then that all changed
Now your an ex best friend

A girl like thatI don't deserve you
What was I thinking?
A fat little selfish brat like me
does most sertainly not deserve such a wonderful boy like you
So you better leave me alone now
I shall step aside
so someone who deserves you better can come around

She has to be real pretty
A cute little face with big beautiful eyes
long waving soft hair
and a happy smile to light up your world

She has to be thin with a partly good confidence
but still humble and kind
to never let you down

She should never hurt you or leave you
She shall always stand by your side and help you fight the battle
and she must have what it takes to do so
She has to have al

My ShadowIf you leave me now,
I will never escape.
You will always be there
sliding in and out of focus
grainy images on a television screen
haunting the outskirts of my mind.
If you leave me now,
I will never be able to say
the words that wait
wait for me to be brave enough
tasting so sweet and so timid
so afraid on my tongue.
If you leave me now,
I will have to live with the regret
knowing that I could have
knowing that I should have
knowing that I didn't.
If you leave me now,
you will never disappear
you will follow me
into tomorrow
till the weight of your absence
takes me down into the abyss.
If you leave me,
I will follo

completely brokenI am completely broken,
trying hard not to show it.
Trying not to let the tears fall:
Flood,
The classroom floor.

SuckedYour trying to steal all the glory,
suck whats left of the energy out of me.
Leaving me weak,
Alone and cold.
Making me sad,
angry.
I can't be near you anymore,
You stole all that i had.
And left me weak.
You left me weak
you left me weary.
You sucked the life out of me.

All You Do is LieDon't you realize
That you can't treat people like that?
Don't you notice
That you can't keep friends like that?
Don't you know
That you can't get anywhere like that?
Don't you ever see?
All you do is lie
And it kills me.
Now all I can do is die.

Haven't you learned
That no one likes a liar?
Haven't you grasped
That you'll go up in fire?
Haven't you recognized
That this situation is dire?
Don't you ever see?
All you do is lie,
And it kills me.
Now all I can do is die.

Can't you envision
That I need someone?
Can't you realize
That this is not fun?
Can't you think
That you may have won?
Don't you ever see?

Free Your Mind, Lose ControlPut down all of your books
Open your troubled mind
Leave the cell-like classroom
And feel the warm sunshine

Beating down from above
On your beautiful skin
Forget all you have learnt
Let your journey begin

Breathe the air on green hills
Open eyes to blue sky
They tried to hide the truth
But with no alibi

Are you just a product
Of wistful memories
Or is there still some time
To change your destiny

Tether your torrid thoughts
Silence those languid words
That pollute your young mind
Instead choose to observe

The beauty that surrounds
Nature is your mother
Wisdom is your father
Creation your lover

The world outside your doo

almost lethalI'm drinking you like pure mercury.

On some certain days I ask myself; 'Can you really take all her words? Can you really handle all of her?', but till now, I'm not able to answer myself this simple question.

I think, I have to explain something to you (and me.)

There is this big, huge shelf full of thoughts and words and stories and memories and desperation and sadness and lives. (Most of the time, I prefer to talk about it as a shelf full of tea, but whatever it content is, it is full of you.)

I'm unable to pick a tiny box or even just a cup from there and then decide to not read it. It's simply impossible.

[To just think for myself be

All for youFalling asleep with tears in my eyes
And haunted by the thoughts of you
This is for you hun'
Your face is smiling at me
A fake, ghost-version of your old beautiful smile
Teasing me with what could have been
What I could have had
Those bright blue eyes look at me
But the sparkle is gone
Now they're just the eyes of a stranger
I watched you dissappear
I stood by and saw you fade away
Only a ghost is left of the old you
There was nothing I could do
So this is for you my dear
I'm holding you oh so tight
Fighting to bring you back to life
I'm falling asleep with tears in my eyes
These teardrops fall for you
This is all for you m

BrokenOnce I was whole now I'm broken
I need to be reborn
Don't let me go
What was broken cannot be repair
Kiss me and return my pulse again
Never let me go
Break me once more
I don't want to be your friend I want to be your lover
My heart is broken, having your name upon it
But don't let me go
Never let me go
I need to be reborn
Nothing last forever, nothing's truly perfect
But I know it's worth it
Being blind, being fooled – I'm no use
Little broken loving fool
Don't let me go
Don't let go my hand
Don't try to understand
Just love me as I am
I am broken, broken till the end

SomedayMaybe someday you'll love someone who doesn't love you back
Feel the emptiness of missing someone who just doesn't miss you
You'll do everything for this person and it still won't be enough
Hold them when they cry
Listen when they need to talk
Understand when they get upset
Make them laugh just to see them smile
But it's not going to make them love you back

Maybe someday you'll find the person who makes you happier than anyone ever has
The one you can't see yourself without
Who makes it difficult to imagine yourself with anyone else
And then they'll leave
They won't feel the same way and disappear

Maybe someday you'll wake up thi

In oneI should work,
But there's to much going on.
I've got emotional issues,
I'm drowning in them.
It means i cant work
Incapable of understanding a thing.
It's in one ear,
and out of the other.

ApartThe brush of your fingers
softness on my cheek
as your gentle hands pull me closer, nearer.
The smell of you fills my lungs,
deep, intoxicating,
almost too much as we stand with no air between us.
Something in my breath quivers;
if this is love, please let me know, but
if this is just lust,
let my body tingle anyway--
let me mingle with you, join,
in ways we've never joined before.
Overwhelm me,
push me down and press your body against me,
breath me in, too.
Show me what it's like when your
soft fingers
turn rough,
when your scent
smothers me in sweat and sweetness,
overwhelming, cloying, like thick, fresh air
until we

Death's ArmsIn life there are many things
That we should fear

Darkness surrounding us
Drowning and washing away
A parents hand across your face
Broken bones and endless bruises
Creepy things crawling into our beds

But the one thing we fear most in life
Is to face out our death

I don't fear death
I don't question what lies ahead
Heaven, Hell, Reincarnation
Doesn't matter in death

Death is not a monster
To behead you with a scythe
I wait safely in Death's arms
Nothing can touch me

Death surrounds us all in life
So there is no need to fear
I just only wait
Until my time has come

Death drops me
Out of his arms I fall

When death release

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HomeHere we go again
Tears running down my cheeks
I thought I had left that shit behind
I thought I was done crying now
I thought I was stronger
but honey for you I'm so vulnerable
When you're not here with me a piece is missing
I just wanna go home
and home is wherever you are
Never before I wanted something so much like I want you
I want you to be here with me
Keeping those demons away
Making me laugh when I just feel like breaking down
Oh honey, end this crying and take me home...

Feeling fear, feeling safeDon't try to take care of me I say
I'm not a little child
I don't need you
I say
I pretend to be strong
Show off this armour and wont let anyone near
Wear this mask of strength and hope
No one can hurt me
Yeah, yeah, that's what I say...
Sometimes all I really want to do is to crawl up in your arms
Then I want you to hold me tight and whisper in my ear
"I'm always by your side"
Sometimes I don't wanna be strong anymore
Sometimes I wanna be a scared little girl
Protected by you
I want to feel safe
Not because I wouldn't be able to take care of myself
No, because you will murder the person who tries to hurt me
I want to stand

AloneI see you walk away
A hole starts to open up in my chest
It's so ... dark
The train is near
You can't stay, we both know it
But how am I supposed to keep the smile on my face when you're not here any longer?

Your soft touch on my hand
It says it all
How you press it gently
You don't have to speak a word my dear
I see it all
But how am I supposed to keep my laugh real when you're not here?

I can feel it in your hug
How you never want to let go
Oh, me neither honey, me neither
I won't ever turn the back on you
But how am I supposed to keep the hope alive when you're not here with me?

Everything you said
that laugh
all the cra

JumpI'll wipe the tears of your cheeks
I'll hold you tight
Just so you can feel safe
I wont tell you lies
and I promise to be there when you need me the most
I will take care of you and help you to heal these wounds
but dear, you must give me the chance
I'm asking you to trust me
Take me by the hand
and jump!
I will catch you honey
I wouldn't let you hit the ground

Prove you wrongHe's the boy with kind eyes
a heart of gold
and great pain inside
Last relationship fucked him up
Finding it hard to trust
But my love to you wont fade away you know
So why don't you see it?
She's gonna tear you apart
a little bit more day by day
Do you trust her like you trust me?
Does she look at you the way I do?
Does she really see your true beauty like I do?
If you give me a chance I'll show you
I'll make you understand what it feels like to be missed
to be hold
and to be loved for real
I promise to be true
and never let you down
Cause, my love, you can count on me
I will do anything to see that smile shine again
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You, yes you. I love you. Deal with it ... please?

by ~Aifos96, Jun 22, 2012, 10:49:04 AM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Traditional Fixed Forms

The first boy to take me by the hand
The first boy to say "Hey, your hands are too cold!"
The first boy to hear my silence
The first boy to really understand me
The first boy to see my scars, before I even knew it
The first boy to really get worried for me
The first boy to really feel me

Now I hope, with my shaky, cold hands
with all complicated little me
Now I wait, with all my problems
with my loud silence
Now I give you time, without knowing how that works out
without any insurances

Maybe I get my happy ending
maybe not
At any case
I'll always love you
No, I don't care about your flaws and mistakes
I just love you.
And yes, I blame you and all your wonderfulness for it.
Deal with it.
…
Honey.

You, yes you. I love you. Deal with it ... please?by ~Aifos96

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Okay, so I just had this MAJOR fight with Da. For about an hour, or two, I've tried to center the last stanza. but nooo, ofc not. -.- so I gave up now and moved the text more to the right only.

anyways, I had no plans on uploading this, 'cause it was just another one of my scraps (oh yes, I have shitloads of them on my computer

) but ey, someone might like it and then I've made that someone maybe a little bit happy, or satisfied or whatever xD

Hope you give me some credit, telling me what you think, it's to great help for me!

EDIT: omg this turned out so ugly... fml. oh well, you'll have to live with it I'm afraid.

EDIT2: but jesus chirst!

you really like it, thank you so much for your support!! every comment makes me so so happy and every favorite is highly appreciated!

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~bloodyfight2 Jul 8, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

omg.........o////o i should show this to the guy i like this.....this is just explains how i feel for him

~Aifos96 Jul 9, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Well do it then!

I have considered to do it myself actually

Glad you liked it

~bloodyfight2 Jul 9, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

x3 im going to print out this pic then quickly give it to him then run off owo *my shyness kicks in thts why i run* *O* u should do it to

~Aifos96 Jul 10, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

hahaha, nooo, don't run, then you will miss it when is face cracks into that beautiful smile, you know what I mean ;D
I will, or well, next time we meet, I'm gonna tell him...to the face... and I'm so scared O.O

~bloodyfight2 Jul 10, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

>o< every one says face to face but im so scared Q~Q im such a shy person whane it comes to this stuff >o< but ur right i wont run i will wait for his response! like a brave person!

~Aifos96 Jul 10, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Oh me too, believe me, soo many times I've texted or sent an email about what I feel but this time I really have to take it face to face 'cause, well, he's worth it

That's my girl!! lol xD Please stay in touch with me somehow, I'd love to hear how it works for you, and maybe I can help, if you want me to..? :3 I'd love to do that^^

~bloodyfight2 Jul 13, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

*O* your sooooooo nice x3 i cant wait to see him again my sisters been helping to >_> *hes her bestie* i just hope he says yes

~Aifos96 Jul 14, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

oh awesome! That always helps1

make sure you're on your own, with no interrupting, take a walk or something

You'll never know if he will, but to win you have to take the risk!

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~TexasDreamer01 Jul 2, 2012

I like the repetition of the first stanza, it caught my attention quickly.

Each of the stanzas evolves more and more into a personal voice, instead of just a narration - like the first stanza was overtly formal, the second an attempt in third person (a show of nerves, maybe?), and the third directly speaking to me. Each was a little less structured, and with a little more emotion. It drew me in, and the ending was just wow.

~Aifos96 Jul 3, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

... You're the first person to give me real, I mean like real professional, critic on one of my works!!! Thank you so much!!

I'm so glad you liked it!! And as an answer to you question, yes in the second stanza I'm showing the nervous part of it all. You did really understand the poem well, thank you!

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