Broken trusts and mistakes

"I trust you
with my heart and soul
You're my forever girl
and I believe in you
I don't care about my fears
that didn't wanna let you in
'Cause I want you to be close like no one other
I want you to be with me when it's getting colder
'Cause I want to feel your happiness as mine
'cause I know you wont hurt me, I know it for sure this time
'Cause I trust you with my all"

I don't know what happened dear
I never meant to do it,
I swear
I always said you could count on me
After all, you're all I see
I always said you were safe with me
and oh my dear, I meant every word
but somehow I stabbed you like a sword
Somehow I broke it
Somehow I broke all my promises
I broke our friendship
I broke what matters
I broke your trust for me
I just broke it...

I got angry
I did a mistake
I took a wrong turn
I said the wrong words
I hit the weak spot
And I broke it.

My body is shivering
from the cold you now speak
The tears stream
caused of the unforgiven mistake
Pain in my stomach
for the fear of not being able to make it right again
Words with no sound
Because my mind is empty and my throat's full

The thought of losing what we share
of what we care
what we built up together
In such a dark weather
what I've fought for for so long
The thought of losing you
scare me,
haunt me,
teach me,
and b.r.o.k.e. me

I know I can't force you to stay
but I will pray, I will pray
That it will be your hands I hold
But first I have to save that heart of gold
The worst mistake I ever made
and now you feel oh so betrayed
this bad conscience is worse than any pain
Somehow all I feel is rain
Stab my back like you mean it
Hit after hit
'Cause it's so much better when it's for you I bleed
To make it right it's all I need

I can never explain in words how sorry I am
how I hurt myself
almost as much as I hurt you
I can cry all I want to myself
But it wont matter much to you
if I'm bright or blue
Nothing can take the words out of your head
not even the tears I bled
Nothing will turn that wrong into a right
No matter how hard I fight
'Cause it's all too late now, isn't it my knight?

"How did you feel?
What did you think?
When you spoke the words to hurt me,
what made you let just those words cross your lips?
Not does the words hurt as much
as the fact that it was you
You of all people who said it.
My so called protection.
How could you?
You broke me.
I who trusted you.
What a mistake."